After a busy couple of weeks, I am taking some "me" time to catch up on some SYL challenges!
I will start this blog off my reflecting on what makes me happy. I LOVE being a mum and a wife. I am at my happiest when I am with my little family and working towards a common goal. I am very goal focused, and constantly am striving to better myself and to reach my full potential. This can sometimes be the negative side of me though, as I often let my determination to be "perfect" get in the way of just allowing myself to enjoy life!
I love cooking, gardening, crafting, creating, and being happy. I LOVE to be organised, and that is one part of me that really needs improvement. I am working on this and i know by the end of the year I am going to have my life in order and fully organised!
The top 5 values that define me are: Health, acceptance, connection, control, self development.
Health: I will admit that I have not always been the healthiest. I am by no means over weight, I am just unfit, sluggish, and have failed to look after myself overall. I suffered from Chronic Fatigue Syndrom for about 5 years, and since then my body has never fully recovered. This year I AM making positive changes to my lifestyle. I am so lucky that I have a very supportive husband who is coming on this journey with me. We are making lots of changes and we are feeling so much better for it! I have also recently been diagnosed as being "pre diabetic" due to suffering gestational diabetes in both pregnancies. I am feeling healthy, but know I can feel better! I know by being and feeling healthy will have many follow on effects. I will feel better about myself, I will be more energetic for my children, I will provide better meals for my family... and I will say this shyly... I may even LOVE myself! Something that I dont think I have felt in a very long time!
Acceptance: I am contstantly striving to feel accepted. I often question myself, which leads to me feeling unaccepted. This is all going to CHANGE this year! I am going to feel accepted into society, I am going to face my fears and ensure that I talk to strangers when out in public. I am going to prove to myelf that I have no reason to doubt my acceptance into this world, I am me and I am going to be proud of it!
Connection: This is a big one! I love to feel a connection with everyone! I am sure if we all dig deep enough, we will find that we all have a connection of some sort. The world is an amazing place, and everyone has experienced amazing things in their life. I love learning about other people and digging to fnd a similar experience or "connection" with them. Although I struggle to source this connection with many people, this is the year that I am going to step up and become that person that is comfortble talking to anyone and discover more connections.
Control: This is a part of me that I need to learn to manage a lot better. I am naturally a control freak! If I dont have control, all sorts of things happen! I feel unaccepted, untrusted, a failure, "useless", unworthy... I guess out of control sums it up pretty well! I know by increasing my self confidence and self esteem, then the need to feel in control all the time will slowly dissapear.
Self Development: This one is very important to me. I am always looking for ways to improve myself and increase my abilities and knowledge. I am an over achiever, and I always expect too much of myself. Feeling accepted, a connection and in control of my life will assist me in managing my inner desire to be better!
I have only touched slightly on these values. I could blabber on for ages about what each one means to me and how I am going to make positive changes.
xoxo
http://www.homelifesimplified.com.au/52-weeks-to-simplify-your-life-challenge/
Saturday 21 January 2012
Sunday 8 January 2012
SYL Week 1 - Reflecting on 2011
So after typing, deleting, thinking "god that sounds stupid", retyping.... reading.... deleting... I am just going to do this! Thats what this is all about! DOING THINGS and not worrying about what people are thinking, or if i am going to fail!
2011 - The year of uneven ground, uncertaintly, emotions, happiness, pregnancy, promotions, study, birth, motherhod, decisions... the list goes on!
The year started out with a lovely family holiday at the beach. Life was perfect! My husband (who I will refer to as Mr T), our daughter (Miss A) and I relaxed, played, and just enjoyed quality time together as a small family. We had been trying for another baby for about 6 months, but it just wasnt happening for us. Obviously the time was just not right for us.
We returned home... then it started to rain... and rain... and rain! Within a week, we went from a happy and relaxed family, to a stressed, emotinal and uncertain family as the threat of floods headed towards us. We prepared as well as we could. Stocked up on as much as we could, had an evacuation plan in place, had our valuables ready to pick up and go! During these few uncertain and rocky weeks, I discovered I was pregnant - finally!! Talk about mixed emotions!! Happy, scared, emotional, uncertain... all mixed together!
Once everything settled down, we took the time to fully digest that we were going to become a family of 4!! We were over the moon! I started to work out dates.... and discovered I was due 5 weeks before my sisters wedding... which was overseas! So yet again, I was faced with mixed emotions. Over the moon I was pregnant, uncertain if I would be able to attend my sisters wedding and fullfill the job of being her only bridesmaid, and really.... I just ready to crawl in a hole and wait for the year to finish! Breaking the news to my family should have been an exciting time for us, but instead I was scared! Scared of what they would think. Scared of letting my only sister down. Scared of their reaction! I know my mother too well, and her possible reaction REALLY scared me! Thankfully they were happy, and excited to be getting a second grandchild, although I could tell the possibility of me not being able to attend the wedding was playing on their minds.
I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes again, just like with my first. The Dr said this would play a major factor if I would be able to fly at 35 weeks. So basically, we just had to wait and see how things panned out, and how I was coping. It wasnt until 2 weeks before the wedding that he said he would be happy for me to go. What a relief!
We spent a lovely week overseas and enjoyed every moment! 2 weeks after returning, I had a baby boy via c-section (Mr O). He is a perfect baby, and totally completes our family!
The year 2011 dealt us many hurdles, but we conquered all. Mr T and I became closer, we realised what was important to us, and what people and things were dragging us down. We came out on top after a very stressfull year for many reasons, and know that we can face anything that is put in front of us, and conquere it! We are a great team!! On top of that, I received a promotion at work, completed a diploma, survived a c-section staying awake for the whole procedure (required a general for my first), started putting a routine in place at home, and made the decision to make 2012 the year for me!! The year of self discovery and dedication to allowing myself to grow!
So, as I finish my "year in review", I feel elated that we made it through, I feel energised for the year ahead, and I feel greatful for the negatives that we were faced with, because if it wasnt for them, I would not have discovered my full potential, and had the opportunity to shine and start heading in the direction that I am meant to!
Good bye 2011 and a big hello to you 2012 - lets make the most of this journey!!
xx xx
http://www.homelifesimplified.com.au/52-weeks-to-simplify-your-life-challenge/
2011 - The year of uneven ground, uncertaintly, emotions, happiness, pregnancy, promotions, study, birth, motherhod, decisions... the list goes on!
The year started out with a lovely family holiday at the beach. Life was perfect! My husband (who I will refer to as Mr T), our daughter (Miss A) and I relaxed, played, and just enjoyed quality time together as a small family. We had been trying for another baby for about 6 months, but it just wasnt happening for us. Obviously the time was just not right for us.
We returned home... then it started to rain... and rain... and rain! Within a week, we went from a happy and relaxed family, to a stressed, emotinal and uncertain family as the threat of floods headed towards us. We prepared as well as we could. Stocked up on as much as we could, had an evacuation plan in place, had our valuables ready to pick up and go! During these few uncertain and rocky weeks, I discovered I was pregnant - finally!! Talk about mixed emotions!! Happy, scared, emotional, uncertain... all mixed together!
Once everything settled down, we took the time to fully digest that we were going to become a family of 4!! We were over the moon! I started to work out dates.... and discovered I was due 5 weeks before my sisters wedding... which was overseas! So yet again, I was faced with mixed emotions. Over the moon I was pregnant, uncertain if I would be able to attend my sisters wedding and fullfill the job of being her only bridesmaid, and really.... I just ready to crawl in a hole and wait for the year to finish! Breaking the news to my family should have been an exciting time for us, but instead I was scared! Scared of what they would think. Scared of letting my only sister down. Scared of their reaction! I know my mother too well, and her possible reaction REALLY scared me! Thankfully they were happy, and excited to be getting a second grandchild, although I could tell the possibility of me not being able to attend the wedding was playing on their minds.
I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes again, just like with my first. The Dr said this would play a major factor if I would be able to fly at 35 weeks. So basically, we just had to wait and see how things panned out, and how I was coping. It wasnt until 2 weeks before the wedding that he said he would be happy for me to go. What a relief!
We spent a lovely week overseas and enjoyed every moment! 2 weeks after returning, I had a baby boy via c-section (Mr O). He is a perfect baby, and totally completes our family!
The year 2011 dealt us many hurdles, but we conquered all. Mr T and I became closer, we realised what was important to us, and what people and things were dragging us down. We came out on top after a very stressfull year for many reasons, and know that we can face anything that is put in front of us, and conquere it! We are a great team!! On top of that, I received a promotion at work, completed a diploma, survived a c-section staying awake for the whole procedure (required a general for my first), started putting a routine in place at home, and made the decision to make 2012 the year for me!! The year of self discovery and dedication to allowing myself to grow!
So, as I finish my "year in review", I feel elated that we made it through, I feel energised for the year ahead, and I feel greatful for the negatives that we were faced with, because if it wasnt for them, I would not have discovered my full potential, and had the opportunity to shine and start heading in the direction that I am meant to!
Good bye 2011 and a big hello to you 2012 - lets make the most of this journey!!
xx xx
http://www.homelifesimplified.com.au/52-weeks-to-simplify-your-life-challenge/
Tuesday 3 January 2012
Welcome :)
Hi everyone! Wow - I never would have thought I would find myself "blogging". Its a totally new concept that had never even considered. What would I have interesting to talk about that others would want to read? Thanks to Deb at Home Life Simplified, I have decided to take part in her 52 week challenge and take the jouney! AND I'm excited! Ive always known there is more to "me" that I know about, and I really was not sure how to find it! But now I have a way, and a reason to do it. Not only will benefit, my whlole family will as well. I AM going to become a BETTER mother, wife and family member! YIPPEE!!!
(now is the point were I feel total "fear" and think about pressing delete or publish..... This is my first step... PUBLISH!!)
(now is the point were I feel total "fear" and think about pressing delete or publish..... This is my first step... PUBLISH!!)
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